Pumped up kicks....

I have been consistent so far on my runs. I took Saturday and Sunday off. Saturday I was fishing all day so it was kinda hard to run that day and Sunday it poured down rain and my stomach was still upset.

Either way I am back at it. I ran yesterday and today. I also played ultimate frisbee for an hour this morning.

Double workouts means I'll be back in shape in half the time right? Oh a girl can dream.

This did give me a good excuse to buy a new pair of running shoes. I truly needed a good excuse because I have been cutting down on my shoe fetish. I am running out of room.

Let the break in period begin and my time for the mile and a half decrease.

Here fishy fishy.....

Went fishing yesterday. Wait... let me re-phrase that. Went fishing all damn day yesterday. Haha. I left the house around 6:30 am and didn't get back home until 3:30 am.

 Two boat trips and some drunch (My new word. Drinks and Lunch. Clever ain't it?)

First trip was for only 4 or 5 hours. We weren't catching anything. I kept trying to get the guys to bite the head off of a bait fish. You know, for good luck. The chickenshits wouldn't. After another hour of nonsense I said fuck it and decided to do it.

I had done it before. It's so nasty. It tastes horrible and makes you want to throw up. The worst things are that the taste stays in your mouth forever and you get scales stuck in your teeth. Now the first time I did it was almost a year ago. We were catching anything and after I did it, the boat started to catch stuff about 30 minutes later.

This time it was about 5 minutes after I bite the head off and one of the girls snagged a King Fish. Damn. Now I have to do this every fishing trip we go on. Uhhhh.

I hope you enjoy your offering Poseidon. 

Everyone on the boat started to catch fish like crazy so I guess it was worth it. Your welcome my peeps.

And believe it or not, I was still hungry for lunch.

Thankfully for the second trip which was 6 or so hours at night had alot of fish catching. I was not looking forward to biting another fish's head off.

After everything was said and done I got home around 3:30am. I now know what "Land sickness" is. Its like your still on the boat rocking back and forth when you are sitting still. That part didn't bother me. I have had that many times before. What the sickness part was when everything in my stomach felt like it was still sloshing back and forth.

Not to be too graphic, but the hot wings, fried pickles, 3 redbull and barcadi's, who knows how many beers, and vitaminwaters decided to come out....of both ends. Oh and some skittles. Finally after reaching the very most bottom of my stomach, I got some relief and was able to fall alseep. That was around 5:30/6 in the morning.

Of course my roomies didn't sleep in either. No big deal, I broke out my head phones and passed back out until 11. That was when the little girl decided to yell something. Shit, time to get up. A pot of coffee later, I was all good. Thank you God for making coffee. I am truely blessed.

Holy fat kid!

Ok. So I might have gained a few pounds (and gained a few on the few) since I quit smoking but wow. I totally felt it today!

I decided to go for a jog since I haven't done it in a while. It's usually something I mostly enjoy doing. We kinda have a love/hate relationship. I hate doing it but love the feeling afterwards. I figured I would be a little slower since I haven't jogged in a while, but damn. For those who know, if you don't use it-you lose it.

Welp, I totally lost it. I felt like I was doing the Truffle Shuffle rather than jogging. My time for the mile and a half increased a whole minute. That may not sound like alot, but it is for me. It's over the time allowed for my physical test for work.

No big deal I guess, I'll just have to start running more often and I'll be back. Good thing was that I didn't stop and my breathing was better. Hmm. Imagine that.

This day is still going?

Today's training lasted forever! I think that it wasn't suppose to happen today. Everyone was struggling to stay not only attentive but awake.

At one point at the beginning of the class the computer system decided to take a poop and had the class delayed for an hour while the instructors tried to fix it. Finally they told us to take a 2 hour lunch break. Not good.

So after a mostly uneventful walk around Bass Pro shops and a food break, we walk back to the room hoping for them to have called it a day.

 Nope.

They got the system working. Uhh. So we get back to the grueling job of trying to pay attention. I am totally focused on entering some stupid thing into the computer when the hotels fire alarm scared the piss out of me!

Everyone thought the look on my face was priceless. Me? It took me a whole 5 minutes to stop freaking out and realize what that EXTREMELY loud noise was that was blaring in my ear. Not like me at all. I'm usually not very jumpy.

Yet another delay in class. Another 30 minutes later we start back up and had the alarm go off again. The hotel decided to test the fire alarms and didn't bother to let the rest of us know.

Nice.

Finally after what seem like 30 hours we were done for the day. If I was to start smoking again, today would have been the day. Mostly from boredom. Kidding. Well sort of.

2 weeks strong of not smoking!

In reserve...

I think I am going to become a part-time reservist. Haha. I had so much fun going out on the boat with them. Plus one of them always wants to get underway and so do I so it makes things much easier. I think that I will start hanging out at the station on their reserve weekend just so I don't have to bother the duty crew if I want to go out on the boat.

There was alot of funny moments on the boat. The best was when I burped and I was like "Mmm smells like Red Bull" (I had one on the way there so that made sense) then one of the guys in the front seat said "Huh. Tastes like Red Bull, OH MY GOD!!! I just tasted your burp!" haha. That was on the first trip. Another funny one was when the guy driving back needed help navigating. It was night time and we were nearing down town Miami so there was alot of background lights. At one point I told him his red flasher (an aid to navigation that has a red light that flashes) is off to his right a little bit ahead of us. He kept saying "Are you sure? It seems too far away." I said "Yes of course I'm sure. You see the correct one right?" He said that he thought so but its seems very high up. At that point I noticed what he saw. I then informed him that what he was looking at was a radio antenna and so of course it was going to be high. Do de dooo. haha.

I also met a couple of reservists who I haven't seen before. They had the pleasure of riding with me on the second day in the morning. Haha. What a good way to introduce myself by taking them off shore. Ok so let me lay it down for you first: the nearest exit to the ocean (offshore) is through an inlet called Government Cut. Alot of cruise ships and other boats/ships go through there. Its very busy and surrounded by jettys (large rock formations that extend in a line). Its usually very choppy an rough on the way through, think of a washing machine. Its only that way right there, once your through your fine. Either way I like driving the 25 (a 25 foot boat) out the inlet. Super fun for me, 4 foots waves and yada yada, I think you get the idea. Anyways I drive out in my normal fashion of jumping the waves and landing fairly smoothly. All in all it was a blast for me. Everyone enjoyed it, even the guy who kept saying he was sitting on his balls and every wave hurt like hell. Haha. Well later on in the day I got one of the girls to open up and she said she was terrified! haha. Nobody has ever taken her out in that. She was confident in me but stated that she is a fair weather crewman. Silly girl, your in the Coast Guard even if it is the reserves.....

I also managed to drive past one of the guys I work with apartment building. I proceeded to set off the siren and make as much noise as possible when going by. He heard it and didn't know what the hell was going on. Haha. I also drove past a boat with what appeared a guy and a topless girl. I was like "Is that a girl driving without her top?!?" Then one of the people told me it was a guy not a girl. Wow. I either need to get my eyes checked or that guy needs to grow some hair on his chest.

Whew!!

This weekend has been super busy! I got underway all weekend with the reservists. (I was on the boat all weekend for those who read that as jiberish). 7 hours Friday night, 6 hours Saturday morning, 2 hours Saturday night and another hour today. Plus I went over some law enforcement qualifications with 2 different people and had to find time to drive back and forth and sleep. The only bad thing in this whole thing is that I might have to do it all over again in a couple of months. I only wish I didn't have training all this coming week because this girl needs a day off!

I guess with all of this I don't have to worry about dealing with my roomates. Well I wouldn't really call it "dealing with". It's not like they are bad or anything, its just that I'm not use to people living with me and I have just gotten very particular with things around the apartment. In a couple of weeks they can do whatever. Haha What I don't know won't hurt me as long as I don't come home to a trashed house I don't care.

For now its football, beer and pizza time. I'm sure there are some funny stories I can tell about my weekend, but I am just too out of it to remember any! Haha Maybe I should just take a nap. I am still sick by the way. Resilience baby.

Room for Roomie's...

My temporary roomies have arrived...at 3 am this morning. Uhh. Oh well. I couldn't very well tell her that she and her daughter had to find somewhere else to crash. That would be mean. Anyways, I only have a couple of weeks to deal with it cause I will be leaving for Louisiana. I told her this morning that she and her daughter are more than welcome to stay as long as they needed. I'm not really going to be around for a couple of months so at least they can watch the apartment for me. Plus it will give them more time to find a new apartment that they will actually like. See people, I can be nice sometimes. (It just doesn't mean I have to like it. Haha)

Lets see, what else is new. Oh! My little escapade on Sunday landed me sick. Yup. I have been doping up on the Nyquil the past couple of nights. Monday I passed out at 8 pm and didn't wake until 6 the next morning, and that was only because of my alarm. So many lessons learned that day. Drinking in excess, being overly retard in my texting, leaving with stranger, trusting random people (still not sure if my drink was laced), driving when I shouldn't, and well, you get the idea. Good news is that with me being sick I don't want to go anywhere near cigarettes or alcohol. Its been officially 1 week since my last cigarette. Go me! AND not feeling well makes me not as hungry. Bonus!!! My fat ass could use a break.

Lastly I am doing more training. Not as boring as last weeks and definitely more warmer. Its only 20 minutes up the road from where I live. Its on the navigational system that will be on my boat. For those who don't know what the hell I'm talking about, it's kinda like a souped up GPS. I have never used the system before, but I am blowing it out of the water. There are things I am figuring out even before the instructor gets to it. It's so weird how some things can just come naturally to you. I'm glad I get to shine in something in front of everyone. The only bad thing is, is that now they are going to come to me for everything. Damnit. I really do need to learn how to play dumb.

And then its put in color...

Ok so just a quicky. You know how I compare myself to Ted Mosby? Alright well tonights episode of How I Met Your Mother was priceless. "46 minutes" shows a drunken idiot Ted. He was making sappy phone calls (which I tend to only text), stumbling around like a fool, getting one pulled over on him, and well making an ass of himself.  SO ME last night!!! Haha. Just thought it was funny. Had to share.

Off the deep end...

I have lost it. I am officially declaring myself a crazy person. After what I did last night, I am going to just step back, and slow down. I feel that I am getting out of control.

Last night I went to Duffy's to watch the Packers/Giants game. I was only one of a few Packers fans. Totally out numbered. Anyways, I get to drinking. That seems to be my downfall in most cases. Well, the continued drinking anyways. I need to re-learn moderation. I ended up leaving with some guy who just moved here. Don't worry I didn't do anything. I'm not that stupid. We were going to go to a club but had to stop by his hotel first. I stayed in the car. By the time he came back, all I wanted to do was go home. So I drove. Don't remember most of it. I did manage to back my truck into my parking spot with only a minor scratch on the bumper. (The parking spot is hard to get into on any day.)

Earlier in the night I began to text that guy again. Always a bad mistake when drinking. As you can imagine it didn't go so well. By the end of the night, in between the puking in the toilet, the texts got more incoherent. I was a hot mess. The whole time I was thinking to myself that I need to stop texting this idiot! Haha. Eventually I did. Well and once this morning to apologize. I won't hear back from him. It's ok. I'm good with that. I think I have finally moved on and won't be roped back in again.

“I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.” ― Marilyn Monroe

That's not the only thing chapped...

So my lips got a little chapped being in the cold. I kinda figured that. What I didn't expect was the walking. On my last night there, we all decide to go to get a cheese steak. We all decide to walk because it was only suppose to be a little over a mile. We did debate on taking a cab, but I made the smart ass comment saying we have to run a mile and a half, whats a mile walking going to hurt. My famous last words.

We start walking, at little off course but no biggie. What sucked is that those leading the way are alot taller than me and walk twice as fast as me. Now the other issue I was having was that I have felt a little bloated and my jeans were kinda tight. So tight that I couldn't lift my legs too high and definitely could do anything more than a half jog.

So we finally get to Jim's Steaks, after a quick detour to the liberty bell and then a photo stop. The photo stop was funny because after we took the picture I noticed that one person in our group was missing. The Chief decided to walk off and not tell anyone. When we started walking again without him, he popped out of some bushes. Weird. Totally weird.

Ok back to the main story. We eat the most amazing cheese steaks ever. They had autographs up on the walls which was cool. Except for a really cheesy one of Bruce Willis. I wish I would have taken a picture of it because words cannot describe the corniness of it. There was an Irish pub right down the road so we walk to that next. My problems came to light there. After sitting down for a while, I noticed my feet were extremely sore, as were my thighs.

After some time and well after half of the group left, the remaining hooligans left. Of course we walk all the way back. More than a mile. By the time I got back up to my room I was almost limping and felt I rubbed all the jean material off my inner legs. I will admit I have gotten some extra "padding" here lately, but damn! I start to undress and I notice my toes are bleeding. One toenail was digging into my other toe and since I wore boots, my toes had now where to go except into each other. Lastly, I ended up rubbing the hell out of my thunder thighs. So now I have a scab on my toe and chapped thighs. All because I quit smoking and slacked off on working out. Lesson learned.

I am Ted Mosby.

Ok so I told a friend I would write this a while ago. If you have never watched How I Met Your Mother, shame on you. I freakin love that show. I can relate to a couple of the characters (hence the reason for this blog) and also the other characters on the show relate to my friends. I know who my Barney is, Lily and Marshal, and that leaves Robin and Ted.

After watching a few shows with an open mind (meaning I was a little alcoholed up and a little lonely) and I realized I am Ted Mosby. My previous post on The Hopeless Romantic kinda solidified that. For those who haven't seen the show, Ted is a guy who falls in love with the first girl who shows him any attention. Of course when this relates to me, I am talking about guys. Please keep that in mind. He is a hopeless romantic who keeps searching for that "one". He has a bad tendency to think that every girl he meets is the "one". Haha. And thats where I can relate. Its like "Here you go! Here's my heart" then "Awww" (Thats me after he turned it down), next guy comes around and  "Here you go! Here's my heart" then "Awww". Yup vicious cycle.

I got into the discussion about it to a friend and she agreed, but thought I that I am also Robin. The thing is  that I am very much like Robin. Hard headed, rough and tough, pretty much one of the guys, and puts up a hard front but secretly wants what every girl wants. A marriage, kids, white picket fence. That is so true. But deep down I am Ted. I just don't show it to many people.

I saw an episode the other day that surprised me because I finished one of Ted's comments. Totally freaked me out! It was Season 7, Episode 1"The Best Man" I'll insert the conversation between him and Robin.

Ted: I used to believe in destiny you know? I’d go to the bagel place, see a pretty girl in line, reading my favorite novel, whistling the song that’s been stuck in my head all week and I'd think “Wow. Hey maybe she’s the one”. Now I think “I just know that bitch is going to take the last whole wheat everything bagel.”

Robin: You’ve just been focused on work

Ted: No, it’s more than that. I stopped believing. Not in some depressed I’m going to cry during my toast way. Not in a way I even noticed until tonight. It's just every day I think I believe a little less and a little less and a little less and that........sucks. What do I do about that Scherbatsky?

Robin: Your Ted Mosby, you start believing again.

Ted: In what? Destiny?

Robin: Chemistry. You should have chemistry. You only need one other thing.

Ted: What’s that?

Robin: Timing.  But timing’s a bitch.

I answered the "sucks" part. Haha. Well enough about me, I mean Ted. You get the point. Just do me a favor and watch an episode. 

Philly what!?!

Just getting back from good ole cold ass Philly. Had to do some training. Thankfully for me (and a few others) I got to come back early. I only had to deal with the cold for a short amount of time. I had a good time. The training was interesting but boring. If that even makes sense. It was the classroom part that had my eyes going cross eyed. After class was a pretty good time. I got to have a real Philly cheese steak. The whiz kind. AMAZING. And I got to have the Philly pretzel which was equally awesome. Had a few drinks, got to see some sites, and went on a Tim Horton's adventure only to find it wasn't there anymore. Super sad. I haven't had Tim Horton's in like 3 or 4 years and I miss it sooooo much. Oh well, I have lasted this long, I guess I can wait a little longer.

So I am bound for bed. I'm worn out from the trip, but I will post some of my adventures in the PA in time. I got some good ones. Ted Mosby, It's right up the road..let's walk, Timmy Horton, Man-crush, Credit Card info at 1 in the morning, just to name a few.

Jim's Steaks

So what rhymes with grass?

Ok so your looking in the mirror and you look at your backside. What is that? You know that thing that sticks out a little (ok more for some)... What is that thing? Oh yeah that's me. The ass. Ok so I made a complete ass of myself last night. Damn. Yeah, well you know shit happens. I got a little stupid and text happy. Uh. Yup so as you can imagine I made a few texts that I probably should not have. A couple were to some friends that I needed to vent to and needed to boost my self esteem.

 The other was to "that guy". I am such a dumbass. I texted him to come hang and of course he bailed, but the great part was that I asked him if I should just give up on him. Of course he dodged the question and said that he was just busy with work and school. I told him that I am busy too but that didn't answer my question. He never did answer it. But I rambled on like a complete idiot. Duh. SMH. I did apoligize to him today but didn't get a response. Why do I do this to myself. I should just delete him from my contacts to eleminate me embarassing myself again.

Anyways, I get to escape it for a couple of days. I get to hang out in chilly ass Philly. Brrr. I miss my Florida weather. I got to text my friend that I dupped "Buckeye Mike". He is the guy that I met in Jacksonville. The one with the championship ring. Anyways, he lives in Pittsburg. Don't know if we are going to met up or not but he is a really sweet guy. I'm not one for long distance relationships, but if I was he might be a good candidate. Still doesn't compare to my bff, but who really does? haha

So here is to being away from home and finding new places to drink with a great crew. When in doubt, drink it out. Haha. It's always a good time.

I just don't get it...

Really I don't. I try so hard to give myself to someone and they only shut me down. It makes me think "what is wrong with me?". I know by talking with friends and strangers that it is not really me, but damn. What's a girl gotta do to get some love around here? I guess I just need to let it be and love will find me when I least expect it. The only thing is, is that I am not the patient type. I am ready to open myself up and give that person my all. But there really isn't anyone here that is willing.

There is my best friend in the whole wide world that would be here for me if he wasn't miles away. I love him and he doesn't know just how much. I would go to the ends of the earth for him. I compare every man I meet to him. Nobody matches up. Nobody gets me like he does. I only hope that one day God will pair us together and my sappy love story will end. Well maybe finally begin. I love you best friend.

The Hopeless Romantic...

Is it really hopeless or more like helpless?

When you feel something for someone, you can be quite helpless on how to handle it.

There is always hope for love so how can it really be hopeless?

To be hopeless is to be of negative emotions.

I guess in this manner to feel helpless isn’t really a positive emotion either.

But oh to be romantic... That is a somewhat easy one.

For some, not so much, but for the ever wanting lover inside, it means everything.

Does it not matter that you have loved or you have lost, but that you tried?

Oh what a silly saying…Trying to seek love can be quite trying.

To give your all to someone and then have them turn it down is trying….

To wait by the phone hoping for that call is trying….

To re-read all the messages and go over the conversations in your head is trying…

Trying can be quite hopeless or helpless but romantic at the same time.

So what is a hopeless romantic?

I hope that one day I can find that one that can be my romantic.

I am helpless with the way my heart often over rules my brain.

To love is to love, even if that love is helpless or hopeless.

So here is to taking the less out and getting more.

I am the hopeful romantic.

Your superstitions are no match for my lack of inhibition.....

Don't have much for today. Went back to work yesterday. If you want to call it work. There really isn't much for us to do since most of the crew are still gone. Oh well, it makes for a quite office. Still haven't heard anything from that guy. I figured he would at least wish me happy birthday. I got nothing. I guess there will be water if God wills it. I will be leaving for Louisiana soon so I guess it doesn't matter. I'm not good with long distance relationships anyways. Still kinda sucks though. I thought there might have been something there.

Zzzzz

I am officially beat. I have definitely had an awesome start to the New Year. Yeah there were a couple of things that didn't go my way, but I think that it worked that way for a reason. It sucked that none of my friends were able to go with me to Jacksonville, but looking back at it, it wouldn't have been the same with them there. I had the most amazing time and really kinda found out more about myself. I thought I had a pretty good grasp at who I was, but this trip helped me find out a little more or just even help solidify what I did know. I'm so glad I went.

Of course now that I am home, I am exhausted. I did New Years Eve with a group of friends, slept a couple of hours then drove 6 hour to Jacksonville. Of course there it was pretty much party on. I didn't sleep to well and was constantly on the go. With plenty of liquid intake of course. Then after 2 days of party hardy it was another 6 hour drive back. Yup, I'm tired. Haha so much for an exciting birthday! I think I celebrated enough the last few days to cover today.

Really?

Ok so my Buckeyes didn't win today. It is ok, I really didn't expext them to. I had fun either way. Great people equals a great time. I met a lot of great Buckeyes today. I also met some Gator fans that really wasn't that bad. Except for the married guy that tried to pick me up. Like really? What is it about me that says "the other women"? Sorry dude. Not going to do it, but yeah, good luck on that marriage thing.

The end of day one...

In all honesty I was going to post a rant earlier but decided to wait untill the day was done. I'm glad I did. In a matter of a few hours my feelings have changed. At first I was going to post how it sucked that none of my friends pulled threw and came with me and left me to come to the bowl game in Jacksonville all by myself. Yeah that much hasn't changed, but I  feel much better about it now. While sitting at the bar tonight at the hotel I managed to make great conversation with quite a few awesome people.

I got to have a lengthy conversation with 3 older men that were just as sweet as can be. We talked about football, friends, family and they bought me a few drinks. Two of the best moments were when I jokingly gave each one a different name. You had to just be here to understand the hilariousness of it. The second was listening to them argue over football. I also got to meet a guy who played with the Buckeyes from 1991-93  and got to see the championship ring that he wore. Totally awesome. We are going to meet up tomorrow sometime and tailgate.

There were also a few other really awesome people I spoke with. It really put things in perspective for me. It really didn't matter that my friends bailed on me because I took a chance and went anyways and found that I can meet friends anywhere and have a pretty spectacular time anywhere I go. It is amazing what a few hours and a really cool personality can do.

I will say that I invited that guy I was talking to, to go to the game again and he pretty much turned it down. Sorry buddy but that was my last ditch effort and you blew it.  I won't be contacting him again. And after the time I had tonight, you're losing out big time. 

I'm excited for what tomorrow will bring. I got a pimp ass hotel room over looking the water and tickets to see the Buckeyes. What more can a girl ask for, other than the water taxi I'm taking to the game tomorrow. Cheers all!

First one of the new year...

This is my first post of the New Year. As the Aztecs or Mayans (whoever it was) would say there are 12 months and 21 days left. I am going to be optimistic and say that I think there will be more than that. My argument is that they just ran out of room and was like "Eh" and stopped on their whole calender thing. If not, oh well. I plan on living this year to the fullest and if its my last, then so be it. God bless and have a wonderful year. I know I will.